After over a year and half of working part time and being home part time with Liam I have decided to return to work full time. I accepted another part time job in addition to my current part time job bringing me to 40 hours a week. I now work part time in the Connection program at Hazelden Betty Ford in Center City and part time as the Vocational Counselor at Hazelden Betty Ford in St. Paul.
Now of course I have been miserably sick with some respiratory stuff this whole week however I powered through and was able to learn and enjoy my new role while still working in my other role as well.
This was my first full week and I really enjoyed it. I enjoyed meeting my new coworkers and learning the new job. I feel pretty confident that I will be good at my new job and really like it.
Emotionally and mentally I was totally ready to return to full time employment. Liam is such a busy boy that there is just not much I can do to keep him entertained throughout the day at home with his “same old toys.” Warm weather would have definitely made it easier but he loves going to daycare and being with other kids. I also think Liam just needs me less as he is getting older so returning to work will help me feel more fulfilled and also to appreciate all the time that I do get to spend with Liam even more than I was.
I loved my full time job before having Liam but being a first time mom I just felt I could not return to work full time.. I had anxiety about daycare and him feeling abandoned and not being able to watch him grow. I now realize that he is okay and he loves it there. I am confident in the care provided to him at daycare. He has a wonderful daycare provider who loves him. I also tried to keep in mind that both my parents worked full time when I was little and it never bothered me.
I know that I will miss the extra days and time I was able to spend loving on him but I also know it will force me to be more present and appreciative of the time I am able to spend with him. I am looking forward to this new journey and just really thankful that I have been able to try different things to find what works for me.
I give major credit to all the mom’s out there just trying to make their situation work. Stay at home full time, stay at home/work part time, and full time working moms….All are really tough and rewarding in their own way. We are all just trying to do the best we can and love our babies.